If we don’t put Moe to bed before Bub he goes to bed just fine. So Bub seeing Moe go to sleep in our room messed him all up. Tonight we kept Moe out with us and Bub went to bed no problem 🙂 Thank goodness, don’t know if I could do another cry it out night. So this is crazy Moe is already in 3-6 month stuff. He’s not a fatty but a string bean. He fits the 3-6 month pjs almost perfect. It’s so different from Bub…luckily for us it stays cool here for a pretty long time so hopefully the 3 month difference as far as clothes size and seasons go won’t matter. Here’s another weird thing…he goes to bed in his own bed. Bub didn’t do that till he was a year old. Both my boys are fast asleep right this very minute. I don’t know what to do with myself. Ok so really I do…laundry , dishes, web surf…
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I’m writing as Bub screams in his bed 🙁 He was doing so well and then Monday night decided he no longer wanted to sleep in his own bed. He wants to sleep in our room, I think because he knows Moe sleeps in there. Which would be no problem if he actually would sleep in there…instead all he does is play with the dogs and destory our room. So here we are crying it out again. I think he’s finally surrendered…after 15 minutes of heart wrenching screams. It just kills me. I guess life is like this though…not easy on a regular basis. So for every couple of good nights we have -there has to be one bad. Alteast we get the couple of good ones.
I got some new tunes…Jason Mraz, Mr. A-Z It’s different from the rest of his stuff-but still very good! I love Jason Mraz and think he will slowly take over the world 😉 He is hilarious , with an amazing voice.
I have a new favorite show, So You Think You Can Dance, I love it-which is weird because I didn’t really like American Idol-but I can’t get enough of the dancing. I love that it’s on for an hour and half-how strange is that?! Oh while we’re talking about TV…I should mention Meet Mister Mom Mom’s are wisked off to their dreams vacations while the dads are left behind to hold down the fort. They have to keep up with the kids, the house, and some crazy challenges the show sets up. Then at the end they are graded on things like time management and nutrition. The winners gets moolah! Can’t beat that…I mean the mom wins no matter what.
I caught up with an old friend yesterday and we talked about how the world used to seem so big and now seems so small…isn’t strange how that happens. One minute the city you live in is vast and full of unknows and the next you can see across the world and it doesn’t seem so scary. Growing up sure does change things and then again so many things stay the same. Like you’re half a sixteen year old and half an almost 30 year old.
Bub has a freckle!!! It’s so cute and little on his arm. There is no doubt that our boys will have freckles because Ev and I are covered with em…really it was just a matter of when and who’s freckles they’ll have. Bub looks like he’s gotten mine 🙂 Which is interesting because I was sure he had Ev’s fair red head skin…but so far he’s got a tan and one of my freckles so I guess I was wrong. His hair was so red when he was born but it’s slowly turned strawberry blonde. I wonder how long it will stay that way. I thought Moe’s hair was brown like mine but in the sunlight it’s a deep reddish brown and we’re still not sure what color his eyes will be. They’re muddy right now which leads me to believe they will be hazel like mine…but you never know they could turn green or a deep blue. Bub’s where bright blue from the get go. I remember wondering what my children would look like while they grew in my tummy and I could never really invision anything. It’s crazy to see how Ev and I combine, what features show up in which kiddo. I always thought too that it would be whole features…like my nose, Ev’s eyes…but it’s not- it’s little bits here and there. Features made up of a combination of our features.
Ok so it’s 8:30pm here on this amazing thursday night…Ev went out to dinner with some friends so it’s just me and the boys. The boys which I have successfully put to bed-YUP both boys are at this moment in bed asleep(well bub is almost). I’m in awe and only expecting it to last a few minutes, so I thought I’d take advantage and write a little. Life with 2 kiddos is getting easier. We seem to be finding a groove that works and the days are starting to fly by-instead of drag as I prayed for Ev to come home each day. Bub is getting good at his role as big brother and is now a pretty good and reliable helper. He gets me diapers and helps bath the baby (well really he just likes to play in the water but it definitely changes his mood the moment I say hey wana help mommy bath the baby). I find that beyond the boys things with me go back and forth. I’m sure it’s just the hormones switching course but it doesn’t make the transition time any easier for any of us. I feel lonely a lot and I didn’t really when it was just Bub and I. I wonder if it’s because we were always on the go, no time to feel lonely. Now we are at home a lot because going out is an adventure. Sometimes I don’t know what to do with myself or the boys. And of course I have too much time to think…am I doing this whole thing right. Blaming myself for what ever isn’t perfect in our lives. And although I have all this time to think… I rarely have time to express any of it. By the time everyone is settled in for the night all I want to do is close my eyes and shut down. I waste the small amout of time Ev and I have to ourselves mulling over day to day things. I miss him and don’t get to spend the time I want to. But I remind myself there will be plenty of us time in the future…and plenty of time to shower -eat -go to the bathroom alone in the future. I know I’ll look back and my heart will hurt for the time when my boys needed me so dearly-when I was their world. They will always be mine.
Ok so as I’m typing the last line Mo wakes up 🙁 but that was half an hour of me time! and now he’s back asleep…I think I’ll join him
I went grocery shopping just me and the boys-Yup me, an almost 2 year old and 6 week old. Praise the person who invented the Bjorn and goldfish crackers!!! I just strapped Moe (formally known as Pudge) to my chest and stuck Bub in the cart and off we went to set land speed records in grocery shopping and by golly I think we did! The boys did great if you don’t count the few hundred standing up in the cart and pulling things off the shelves incidents-I mean he is only 2 after all. No major break downs or dirty looks from old ladies…