As I sit nursing Aid the sun slowly sets. Like most days everything is ready for Ev to come home-dinner started, house picked up. Bub is happily watching a big big world in my bed-the house is oddly quiet and serene. Quiet is a hot commodity around here, and when I come across some well it just feels weird. But it’s in these quiet moments I’m able to step outside the right now and look into tomorrow. All the sleepless nights and battles of will become small in the time that stretches before me. It puts things in perspective.

I looked into joining a mommy group yesterday. There was an ad on craigslist, so I sent them an email asking for more info. I got invited to a tea right away and sent a calendar of events and over view of how the whole thing works. Member participation is crucial or so they say. Its 25 bucks a year and you have to host two events. So far it didn’t sound bad, esp. the mom’s night out stuff. But you know what broke it for me …McDonalds. It’s kinda silly but every lunch get together they have scheduled is at the golden arches, and beyond the fact that we are stay at home moms and I would hope could come up with something a little more interesting then McDonalds-I don’t eat at McDonalds. I’ve seen way to many PETA specials on how the animals are treated on their farms. And this is why I say it’s silly I have no problem with the rest of the fast-food industry-Just McD’s. They may be just as bad I just haven’t seen any of it. But that did it for me…too many McDonald’s lunch dates.

I’m really enjoying wearing makeup again. It’s like playing dress up every day. Instead of doing the norm I think hey this color eye shadow would be cool or today is a bright lipstick day. A week ago there were no lipstick days. Experimenting is fun and my goodness is there a lot of products out there. It’s insane. I poked through the Sephora site for what seemed like forever mulling over countless eye liners and lip plumpers. Oh what fun teenagers must have now what all this crazy stuff. There are even little kits for specific looks. So I’ve been more time into myself then usually and it has done wonders for my self esteem. I’m realizing to that even though it may take a bit more time and energy to get myself ready for the day it’s worth it. Doing little things for myself helps me be a better mom to the boys. Now if only I could find a playgroup. I’m so jealous when I read about other mom’s and their groups. I want to belong to a playgroup and my own group where we do something cool like get together and knit or draw. Maybe I’ll start my own…