Over It

I’m over being pregnant! Don’t get me wrong I enjoy it…I love feeling Aidan move and the special attention I sometimes get. But I’m ready for this baby to be here. I want to hold and play with him and get this show on the road. I guess I’m just not good at waiting–more of an instant gratification person. Lennox is definitely ready for a sibling. He plays way to well with the dogs…like he’s one of them. Butting heads and biting legs–barking. I’ve had to move him twice while trying to nap on their beds. I’m sure if he could talk he would ask to eat his dinner on floor in the kitchen with them. It?s hard to wait and I think babies should grow in 9 weeks instead of months. Wouldn’t that be nice you could just wake up one morning huge and ready to pop? No waddling around for months and gaining loads of weight. Weight is another reason I’m ready for this to be over…the quicker it’s over the quicker I can get to the breastfeeding weight loss…right?!? Lennox and Aidan will be 21 months apart so I was pregnant before I stopped nursing Lennox, my body hasn’t belong to me since December 2002. Man that sounds like a long time. Isn’t it funny how in Hollywood it’s so fashionable to be a mom….it’s sucks for us normal ladies though…no nutritionist…no chef – no nanny to care for the baby while I work out for 4 hours everyday. I used to think, oh no is Evan going to expect me to lose 65 pounds in 3 months. Then I realized that it was only me putting the pressure on to measure up…measure up to an unrealistic version of myself that will never exist no matter what I do. So I’d like to say that having realized this that I’m now very happy the way I am….but guess what I’m not. Maybe one day…if so far it sounds like I’m a little too preoccupied with my weight, it’s because I am. But that’s this week….

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