Iâ€™ve rediscovered a lost loveâ€¦bike riding. Oh how I love riding my bike. It makes me feel like a kid again. Itâ€™s so calming, cool air rushing by as I peddle faster and faster. I havenâ€™t gotten on a bike since the summer between my freshman and sophomore year of college. I used to ride daily; using a bike to get back and forth to work; then I got hit by a car. That ended my love of riding until just recently when Evan suggested we start riding and get a trailer for the kids. I was so nervous, thinking maybe Iâ€™d forgotten how to ride and then there was the pretty enormous fear of cars. I got going the wind in my hair and it came rushing back. Oh I love it. I took the boys out in the trailer for the first time tonight, it was awesome. They werenâ€™t hard to pull at all. Weâ€™re hoping when the girls are big enough theyâ€™ll ride in the trailer and boys will ride theyâ€™re own bikes. I am so looking forward to family bike rides. Everyone has fun, and itâ€™s a wonderful release for me. Speaking of release Iâ€™ve started the Shape magazine bikini body count down.
I have no hopes of wearing a bikini at the end of the 5 month program but I am hoping to tighten up, maybe even shed the rest of this baby weight. Iâ€™ve done two days of exercises, theyâ€™re hard and my body is feeling the burn. I am so out of shape. I so need to stick with it. Iâ€™m tired of being fat. So tired I even bought some of those 100 calorie snacks in hopes it will fill my need for sweets. I have one every night after the boys go to bed, my treat. I look forward to it all day. Eating has become a way I deal with stress. Things get hairy (daily) around here I run for the panty. Not really helpful with the whole tired of being fat thing. Maybe all the exercising and many bike rides will help with my stress level and that will help me to stop stress eating on top of stopping my body from stress storing. Lower stress=happy kids that sleep well (wishful)=sleep for me (wishful)=weight loss=happy mama! Eh weâ€™ll see.
Oh and Iâ€™ve started walking again too. I love walking almost as much as bike riding. I throw one of the ladies in the Ergo and everyone else in the triple jogger and off we go for an hour. We usually end up at the playground. Things are starting to look up. Exercising makes me feel normal, I need it.