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Pity Party

Lately I hate the playground. I wish there was a playground only for little ones…kids under 3. Although I’m sure if there was people would bring big kids there anyway. You can tell alot about how a child is being raised by the way they treat other children especially younger ones. We’ve encountered a lot of bad bad children lately and it makes me sad. Not only for them but for Lennox. He doesn’t understand and only wants to play and be included. It breaks my heart when older kids are mean to him. He is such a loving fun kid. I’ve even tried explaining to the older kids that he isn’t trying to mess up their games he just looks up to them and wants to be a big boy like them. Doesn’t work though 🙁 There is play group of sorts at the library we are going to start going to ..it’s only his age group. I’m hoping that will be more fun.

I think my hormones are messing around again. I’ve been so up and down with no middle ground. One minute the world is wonderful and my life couldn’t be better. Then the next I’m so depressed I just sit and cry for no reason. Being pregnant, a mom, and a wife is hard enough… I could do with out the daily hormone rollercoasters

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Me time :)

I had ME time today! I actually went some where by myself for about an hour. It was great…granted I went to check out the public library and ended up checking out toddler activity and development books. So even during my non mommy time I did mommy things. But at least I got out alone. It’s hard for me ( I’m sure there are some moms who understand what I mean) I know that I need the me time, away from Lennox and Evan, but when I do get away all I think about is them and it’s hard to stay away. Most of the time I can’t think of anything to do by myself…everything that comes to mind would be fun to do with Evan and Lennox. It’s like they are my best friends and life is more fun with them around.

So I’ve been working on 2 issues with Lennox these days. The first is more activities for he and I to do during the day. He seems bored and I’m not sure what to do with him. He’s not so into coloring or really playing with me for any length of time – but he stills wants my attention. Like I should just sit and stare at him while he plays…which is what I do at the moment. I guess it’s just a stage he’s going through. I would love to find ways to interact with him and help him learn new things….language being big on that list! And here’s the second issue…Lennox will be 18 months in a few days and says very few words. He says mama, daaadee, agua, bye bye and then da for duck and dog and ba for ball. He said cheese, and bad dog once. Mostly he grunts and babbles. He has his 18 month check up on Monday and I know his pediatrician is going to say he needs to be saying more words and freak me out with things that could be wrong. I don’t feel like anything is wrong….he understands everything and communicates just fine. I’m not sure what else to do…I mean maybe we watch to much TV (which is changing) and maybe I should with hold things till he says what they are (which I’ve tried and he just gets upset) Maybe there isn’t anything I can do because nothing is wrong. Being a mom is hard!

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CSI rocks my socks

I started this journal in the hopes that it would revive my love of writing…and I would come up with lots of profound things to say. Well I think motherho0d/pregnancy has robed me of all profound thinking. I sit down – really wanting to write something witty and interesting…but all I can think about is damn I’m hungry again.

Something exciting did happen today though…something all my own! This site I frequent www.pregnancyweekly.blogspot.com linked mooshoo 🙂 My first link (well other then on Evan’s site -which doesn’t count- being my husband and all) It’s a really cool site…informative yet personal. Pregnant or just have kids it’s worth a visit or 2.

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Humanity

Ok, my faith in mankind has been restored – for the moment. Lennox & I went grocery shopping, which is always fun…..not! This time he fell asleep before we got to the store and normally I would have just put it off till tomorrow, but we have no food. So I got him out in hopes that he would wake up and of course he didn’t. In we went, him slung over my shoulder, me pushing the cart with one hand. Everything was going really well until this really rude jackass ran into me and shoved me into the isle knocking a bunch of junk off the shelves. There was plenty of room but he still felt the need to almost knock over a pregnant lady holding her sleeping 18 month old son. I yelled after him…EXCUSE YOU MOTHER F##KER!!! He didn’t stop or turn around just disappeared around the corner. By the time I collected myself he was no where to be found. It gets worse….there are more then a few people in the isle…no one says a thing or even helps me pick up the cans scattered everywhere. Granted hind sight says I probably shouldn’t have screamed mother f##ker at the top of my lungs…but I was caught off guard.

Almost 7 months pregnant holding a sleeping lennox I’m picking up the cans – pissed off- when this wonderful, amazing woman (who didn’t even see what happened) starting picking up the cans with me. All the time saying how I shouldn’t be doing it. Ahh there is atleast one considerate person left in the world. It gets better… while ackwardly digging through cartons of eggs on sale, trying to get down to the ones that weren’t broken, this really nice man starting moving them aside for me and even held some so I could make sure they weren’t broken…a hard thing to do with one hand. So 2 rights got rid of a wrong for me today. The world is still a good place with more good people then bad.

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Friends

Well I had this whole rant on being a singer built up in my head…but the moment’s gone, so maybe I’ll feel the urge again soon. It’s been a slow Saturday, raining again. We were planning on going to the chinese new year celebration but nooooo it had to rain. So we went to the DMV instead and woowee was that fun. It’s weird going to the DMV – reminds me of being in customs – even though I’ve never been through customs. I figured if I did it would look like the DMV. Since then we’ve just been home watching TV, the joys of rainy days. I did get to talk to an old friend who is getting married and having a baby. I’m very happy for her…she acts like herself around this guy and I’ve never seen her do that with boys in the past. So that leaves one of my highschool circle who isn’t engaged, married or with child. But she was the first to buy a house…so really she’s probably doing things in the right order. Actually there is one other friend from that time who will never marry, or have children….she died in a car accident our junior year. Becky, a very good friend. I still miss her.
nonnie, me, theresa, becky
Nonnie, Me, Theresa, Becky

I got another call from my oldest, dearest, best friend. She is pregnant too, 2-3 weeks a head of me. We live really far apart so I only get phone calls and emails(which I would rather then nothing at all) I think it’s just the coolest thing that we got knocked up at the same time! It’s her first so I get to share all the gory wonders of pregnancy with her, the only thing that could make me more happy is if she lived next door. She just cracks me up…so stuborn…severly independent-big reason why I love her so much. Pregnancy has been really hard for her and I think if we were closer maybe it wouldn’t seem so bad. She says this is it – no more kids….hahaha….what she doesn’t know is all the suckyness fades and all she’ll remember is how wonderful it was to feel her daughter moving in her tummy and how amazing it was to hold her for the first time. Time will pass and she’ll do it again and wonder what was I thinking doing this again. Our memory’s evil plan…letting us only remember the amazing parts of pregnancy and none of the bad…well until your in the middle of it all over again. But boy the result of nine months of mostly suckyness is well worth it!!! She isn’t going to breast feed either, she just doesn’t want to…and to that I say good for you. Now before I go further with this you have to know that I breast feed Lennox well into his 12 month and plan on doing the same with Aidan. I am a strong believer in the benefits of breast feeding. But I also believe that if you are not comfortable(emotionally…I don’t think it’s ever physically comfortable-you just get used to it) nursing , then it’s not going to work. It’s going to cause more problems then if you just went with you original feelings…so when I say good for her I mean that she is not doing somthing to make everyone else happy. She is going to do what works for her! More women need to adopt this train of thought….do what works for you. You’ll be a happier mom and wife.